“I loved someone so much and I thought that person is my greatest love. Surpass that. Be the one who is even greater than the greatest love that I had.
I hope that when God lets you in my life, I am ready. I want you to come at the right time because I don’t want to give you the burden of healing me. Trust me, I am trying to heal myself right now and I am not just trying, I am trying very hard.
And if ever you are meant for me, I hope you are meant to stay. I am already in the stage of life where all I want is something serious and something that would last.
And if ever you turn out to be the person who shattered my heart into pieces, my greatest love, I hope this time you already know my worth. I hope this time you are meant to stay.” phrase credit to : Sadness & Agony Facebook page. Thanks a lot!
The above passage really sucks the bottom of my heart. I am drunk while reading this, it hurts but yeah it definitely describe my whole personal life situation. There’s this man I knew for a week and driven me out crazy, cancelling appointments just to spend time with him, throw little white lies just to see him. I don’t know really but he’s a man who blows my breath away when I am with him. He’s a man I am comfortably with, green jokes, funny corny jokes, gives me goosebumps, clumsy dude, a jerk boss, and very manly yet open and caring.
The relationship has no level, it doesn’t give me the assurance whatever, but I feel him. I noticed his gestures, bright smile, hold gazes and stares, his care, his consistent action, his naughty hands, his touch the trembles my whole body, I noticed everything. But this man doesn’t give me a clue what’s going on, only those loud action he throws, those actions that baffled my mind, in every little detail I do.
I don’t even know what get’s him so attached to me, while I am trying not to. But it seems we ended up like this. Like this. More like this. More I am expected to be .
So how I wish we ended up to “something” something worth while , something worth between what we called “us”
I hope we develop a best gym body, ever since I met him in that place ,where people in fuss to work their body’s on shape. I hope he’ll stay the same, the same I knew him before, I hope he’ll stay and make me believe that real love still exist in his being. I hope he’s so understanding and tend not to be jealous whenever the time gets rough.
God, clear this situation. Clear this understanding. Especially my family to accept him fully. I have mood swing and the good side he see is the half of me ,and I hope he’d stay when he get to see the other side of me..
Inspired by: Silhoutte Vous ❤